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Braindead
02:12
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I've been feeling stressed out
Lost and confused, trying to figure it out
Brain dead from my guilty conscience,
And misinformed from all the shit that I've seen
I need to conceal all the things that are killing me
And lock them up and throw them out so that I can live free.
I've been feeling regret,
Sick to my stomach, it's hard to ingest
No pressure I'll just do what I please,
Until this stress lifts off of me.
I've been feeling just a little stressed out.
Lost and confused trying to figure it out.
I need to conceal all the things that are killing me
And lock them up and throw them out so that I can live free.
I'm brain dead from my guilty conscience.
I'm tearing at my skin till I bleed
I've turned a blind eye against myself
Submerged in guilt and tryin to breath
I will never say I saw this coming.
and I will never shame the life I live
Painting pictures of my mistakes.
And I know I'll be the only one left
Without a grudge
I've been feeling just a little stressed out.
Lost and confused trying to figure it out.
I need to conceal all the things that are killing me
And lock them up and throw them out so that I can live free.
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2. |
Headsick
01:55
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I could have had it all and now I've fallen behind falling behind
I'm struggling to stay above the poverty line.
I swung with all I had and missed the easiest shots
Stuck without a shovel as my body rots
I've got a sick fucking head sick fucking head
I'm gonna live till I'm dead
I'm gonna live till I'm dead, until I'm unnaturally maladjusted to it
and I won't ever lose sight of what's in front of us, what lies ahead.
Mirror, mirror, who's the absolute most fucked up man?
It's hard to come to grips with calloused-cut pulsating hands.
If time could heal all wounds,
itís got a hell of a job to do.
A never-ending cycle
of remorse will bury you.
God fucking abandoned us
So we trust in emptiness
When you're running out of second chances, don't miss.
So where's the truth if everyone's in denial?
I think about it every once in a while.
See through, the system from a million miles.
Cold black heart with a secretive smile
I could have had it all and now I've fallen behind
I'm struggling to stay above the poverty line
I'm isolated past the point of severing ties.
They made a slave outta you. I'm gonna live till I die.
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3. |
Dead Weight
02:53
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Ruminating over every mistake
Every burning disassociate
All the evidence that wouldn't add up
The stranger in yourself whoís arms'at you cut
The voice you buried in the back of your mind.
Is nothing of the supernatural divine.
Every moment that your hands had been tied
Appending to conventions of your ego-fucking-suicide
Oh, there was blood in the antidote,
It corroded the flesh of my desperate throat.
As we renew our delusions of god
We accept the complexity seen through the fog.
I'm as empty as
the vials of cyanide,
I'm Losing myself to the poison inside.
Ruminating over every mistake
Every burning disassociate
All the evidence that wouldnít add up
The stranger in yourself whoís arms'at you cut
The voice you buried in the back of your mind.
Is nothing of the supernatural divine.
Every moment that your hands had been tied
Appending to conventions of your ego-fucking-suicide
I've spent too long
suspended in this illusion
I'm severing all of my ties.
I see it all with a new set of eyes,
Its nothing of the supernatural divine,
I wish you well, hope you live well and fine,
When you're stuck with operators of the suicide hotline.
The voice you buried in the back of your mind.
Is nothing of the supernatural divine
I wish you well, hope you live well and fine,
Committing Ego-fucking-suicide
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4. |
Leash
01:55
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There's a line between obedience and kindness
Spent the last 6 months trying to find it
Desire to be a good man had me blinded
Its hard to see the abuse from Inside it
But Selflessness
Is wasted on the selfish
And your self-destruction
Is something I can't help with
I knew the slightest push would break you
I knew I could be wrong
I had convinced myself there's virtue
In being treated like a dog
I've seen a pattern
Of ill-advised decisions
Why do I waste my breath
When I know you'll never listen
There's a line between obedience and kindness
spent the last 6 months trying to find it
Desire to be a good man had me blinded
Its hard to see the abuse from Inside it
You kept me under your heel
You kept on crossing the line
But from this day forth I've decided;
I'm finally walking a way
From what was never mine
To be dignified and defiant
Stay out of my home
And I'll keep my heart out of your reach
rather die alone
Before I'd let you hang me from this leash
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5. |
Mob Mentality
03:11
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Placed in their hands, the message-twisted
Striking with fists, implicit visions
Respecting the lie, we keep our distance
What a plague to be so privileged
Never to speak, only to listen
The downtrodden soon become gifted
Burning bridges, ever divisive
Blinding us to prejudice
Built on foundations of our sins, unforgiven
Aiming for freedom, we narrowly miss
Fatal flaws of false identity
It's never seemed so simple
(To push for peace of mind)
To find serenity
Absent of incidence
Burdened with the consequence (the consequence)
It makes no difference
who's guilty or who's innocent
Pride over consciousness (consciousness)
Preemptive self-defence (self-defence)
Crime in my bloodstream
No chance, I won't relent
As this mob mentality takes hold
Someone will suffer
Fatal flaws of false identity
It's never seemed so simple
(To push for peace of mind)
To find serenity
You're the one who's pushing disinformation
As you herd your sheep into crowds of indignation
But you're the one who needs to learn to draw the line
Between the fiction and the truth you find.
Your perfect world is nothing but a fucking prison
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6. |
Guilt
03:08
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Followed by guilt for committing a sin.
All of my demons they come from within.
Got no direction but that never stops me
From running away from the places i've been.
So vexed that I can't even think straight
My skull is filled with a deafening noise
This is a madness that kills
A fiery hatred inside that destroys
Haunted by ghosts of my every mistake.
Walking on nails every step that I take.
Look for a way out but can't see the light.
Stuck in a body with someone I hate.
So vexed that I can't even think straight
My skull is filled with a deafening noise
This is a madness that kills
A hate that destroys
Try to sleep
But i can't ignore the repulsion in me.
Try to run
It catches up like its shot from a gun.
It always catches up (no matter what)
Every door and window (slamming shut)
And when I try to fight (I always lose)
This is the hand i'm dealt- nothing to do.
This is the hand i'm dealt.
Find peace in myself
Or take the one way out.
Just wait another day
See if the loathing fades
Maybe I'll learn to change.
Dwell on mistakes
Till my head aches
Try to sleep
But i can't ignore the repulsion in me.
Try to run
It catches up like its shot from a gun.
Patience is progress, conflict is life.
Balancing thoughts on the the edge of a knife
Steadfast and stubborn, never relent.
Waging this war till the end of my life.
The cycle will start with an illness
But it will end with a choice
This is a madness that kills
A hate that destroys
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7. |
Fear
02:52
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A hopeless backwards march and the seconds blend
seamlessly into years
(a lost soul//once cold)
dripping with sweat
gripped with constant regret
anxiety
a struggle to breathe
and find peace
inside my own mind
the noise is fucking unbearable
Ten years
Ten years and i'm still
searching for an answer
can't tell if i've lost my way
or i'm bound to failure
Ever pressing,
a constant fear
of falling further down this hole
I distance myself within myself
and wonder if I'll ever know
If I've wasted the years
chasing
something
worth absolutely nothing at all
If I'm treading water,
growing tired each day
I drown
Ten years of tying myself to a sinking ship
I claw my way back to the surface
to sink again
Here i lay, waiting to drown, gasping for air,
i'm dying to hear your simple solutions
Sorrow swings back and forth
Incomplete and broken
Pulsing with white noise and everyone fades out of focus
the pressure inside my head,
it wont subside
there's nowhere to run
and i can't find a place to hide
No Sleep
I can't eat
can't see straight
there's no light
no fight left in me
reassurance rests dead at the bottom
Ten years
Ten years and i'm still
searching for an answer
can't tell if i've lost my way
or i'm bound to failure
The Fear
The fear of waking up
and realizing i'm nothing
i'm no one
I'm nowhere
I'm no one
i'll never be free of this
the weight of it all
is fucking
crushing me
it's getting
harder to breathe
fuck, i'm done
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8. |
Ghost Limb
03:47
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I've got another ghost limb carrying burdens.
I've got a couple friends that forgot purpose.
Understand that its the youth,
Isolated and avoiding truth.
I've got another ghost limb carrying burdens.
And now they'll live like we once lived,
Strung up by the ankles, haunted by their phantoms,
And they will make the same mistakes,
And they'll hurt the way we hurt
May they suffer equal fate.
Pains of youth, barren minds
No Idea Empty eyes
I've got another ghost limb carrying burdens.
I've got a couple friends that forgot purpose.
Understand that its the youth,
Isolated and avoiding truth.
I've got another ghost limb carrying burdens.
And they'll be stuck in their routine,
Strung up by the ankles, haunted by their phantoms,
Another shot is just one lost in the dark,
vicious cycles, merely making a mark,
and they'll be forced the way we're forced,
May they hurt the way we hurt.
Pull back the weight so they can
Pull back the weight so they can breathe
Forced will of ignorance to release the fear inside.
Release the fear inside
I've got another ghost limb carrying burdens.
I've got a couple friends that forgot purpose.
Understand that its the youth,
Isolated and avoiding truth.
I've got another ghost limb carrying burdens.
It's like I'm taken back and held beneath this darkened cloud
Hell followed with no sense of direction,
Stale visions that have poisoned the present.
And they will make the same mistakes,
And theyíll hurt the way we hurt
May they suffer equal fate.
Pull back the weight so they can breathe
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9. |
K.Y.L.R.
02:12
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I came here looking for a safe place
from the malice and the power plays
from the bullshit and abuse
from the constant predatory gaze
welcomed in with open arms
this is where i built my home
thinking i was safe from harm
so much that I didn't know
I found out firsthand
you snakes and pigs are all the same
lurking in bands
luring their victims in with fame
they step on hallowed ground
to catch an easy prey
using those blaring sounds
to drown out when we say
this isn't right
this is where we came to feel like we belong
to a world that wouldn't use us...
how dare you prove us wrong
I used to love it here
but I will sever ties
those faked tears
never covered up the evil in your eyes
vulnerable and alone
i trusted every word you'd say
little did i know
youd take advantage of me
lying, two faced scum
you'll get what's coming to you
can't hide from everyone
we all know the truth
you can't hide from the truth
you'll get what's coming to you
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10. |
Deathbed Regrets
03:59
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Don't wanna fall asleep in cold sweat - Don't wanna feel so tired
Don't wanna dwell on deathbed regrets - I wanna die admired
fangs of distant past
sunk into present skin
Witness lives led to leers
shed pained from deep within
Paranoid
That Iíll lose
everything Iíve worked for while I sleep
Paranoid, Paranoid
Sleepwalking to widow's peak
Unavoidable Capital Crawl
Trying to win at any cost at all
to avoid, to avoid
the rise before the fall
Standing on the edge of widow's peak
Don't wanna fall asleep in cold sweat - Don't wanna feel so jaded
Don't wanna dwell on deathbed regrets - Don't wanna die complacent
Don't wanna fall asleep in cold sweat - Don't wanna feel so tired
Don't wanna dwell on deathbed regrets - I wanna die admired
Paranoid
That Iíll lose
everything Iíve worked for while I sleep
Paranoid, Paranoid
Sleepwalking to widow's peak
Memories burn to ash
underneath the stare of sun
Memories like film projections
dusted and outrun
When the rat race when the rat race is won
i'll the one left
with a smoking gun
Standing on the edge of windows peak
Don't wanna fall asleep in cold sweat - Don't wanna feel so jaded
Don't wanna dwell on deathbed regrets - Don't wanna die complacent
Don't wanna fall asleep in cold sweat - Don't wanna feel so tired
Don't wanna dwell on deathbed regrets - I wanna die admired
Hung out on hooks and left to rot
Burying their heads beneath the sand
Searing in the sweltering heat
withering are, weary grasps of hand
Standing on the edge widowís peak
Dreaming of the air beneath my feet
Sting again of stale martyr teeth
Sorry that I sunk them so deep
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